Out Growing Drug Addiction

Out growing drug addiction, is it possible? This past weekend I had the pleasure of going to a baby shower for my wonderful nephew’s wife. It was beautiful outside and as I strolled around the yard I began to think about my own drug addiction struggles. I am 57 years old and addiction has been in my life since I was a child. My father would ask me to go get him a beer and on my way to deliver the beer, I would take a huge sip of it. I loved it even then. Since that time about 45 plus years have passed.

On the way home from the shower my daughter asked me how long I had known some of the people at this shower. I explained to her that many of them I had known since high school. It was at that point that I started to feel that maybe it was time to stop the struggle with drug addiction. I have played the game of relapse many times unfortunately. I am tired of the struggle with addiction. I like who I am when drugs and alcohol are not part of my daily routine. It has been proven to me time and time again that drugs and alcohol turn me into something I can’t stand.

Is it possible to outgrow drug addiction or is it about finally growing up? I am the only one that can change me. How often I have run across people who have let the things that are important to them slip away because they are either scared of the challenge or don’t have the energy to do the work. This happens to sober people and active alcoholics and addicts. The dark, vicious cycle of addiction is getting old for me. The fear of withdrawal if I can’t get my drug of choice is not a place I ever want to be in again. As I look at the amount of times I have relapsed I am amazed at my own insanity. So am I out growing drug addiction or just growing up? I’ll take either way.

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