Exercising our free will is a gift that was given to us by God. Many people blame God for the mess the world is in and for the mess our lives are in. Alcoholics Anonymous suggests that the active alcoholic is the epitome of self-will run riot. Years ago a wonderful sponsor I had pointed out to me the number of times I said I will. After thinking about it for a time I realized she was right. There is quite a bit of power in those words. I will do this or I will say that suggests that by the sheer force of that will we can accomplish something whether it be good or bad. We will have our own way!
God does give us free will to choose between good and evil. He didn’t want a bunch of robots that were programmed to love Him. For the active alcoholic and addicts that free will is used to get our drug of choice. We will say or do anything to change the way we feel. I have often thought if I could harness the energy and resourcefulness that I use to get the drug or drink, I could accomplish just about anything.
In sobriety I try to use my will for good. I want to be a better person for myself and my family. When I say I will do something it needs to benefit the people around me not hurt them. I never say I will stay sober, I just say I will try everyday. My husband and I have often debated whether I have a choice to get sober. It has been said that alcoholics and addicts have a disease that there is no control over. My husband suggests that there is a point where the addict or alcoholic can decide to get help and do the things he or she needs to do to get sober. I know that some change occurs when we decide to get help but I am unsure how much self-will comes to play in this or is it just a moment of clarity or a gift from God.
Addicts and alcoholics do have an enormous amount of self-will that hopefully can be used to get sober, stay sober and contribute to the betterment of society.